Organizing My Thoughts





OK. I am at the office now and I am supposed to do my work but there are a few things that are bugging my mind that I simply can’t focus on any work. So, let me just focus on this here and blurt it out so that it’ll be out of my system. These few things has been boggling my mind and honest to God, I just hope that all of these will be settled asap.

Finding a house

I know. I know. For the umpteenth time we have talked about moving houses and to be quiet frank, we are sick of it too. I thought the house that we are currently residing would be the one last house we rent here. bu no Jose. God has another plan for all of us. Little did we know that we will not be residing in lovely Shah Alam forever. I mean, it is that one place that we are very familiar and the idea of having to find another place to stay just freaks us out a little(no really, a lot actually). So we have been looking for a house and the optimistic me keep saying somehow somewhere there is a house that fits our descriptions. What’s my descriptions you may ask? Well, well. it is my pleasure(pressure) to lay it out to you here so that I can have a peace of mind.

  • Price wise- I am so reluctant to spend over 1K this time mainly because we won’t be home most of the time and  to work so hard and to pay that much for something that is not even ours makes it even more difficult. However, this may seems like a wishful thinking because on average houses in Klang Valley, the rental would fall around 1k and above.  Some friends said that spend a little more on rent for as long as the house is comfortable and safe. But the optimist in me (again) believe that there is a house that we can accept within this price range- it’s just that we have not found it yet. (cries blood). Also, I believe that by paying less for rent I can save up and do other things with the money like a holiday  or a random trip if we want to. I see the importance of being able to do this since both of us are working now and that we spend less time with A.
  • Location- this is a real bugger to me because for three years in my first job, I have stayed somewhere so near I can even go back and cook lunch and still have the time to eat at home. So, this new job has some really high expectation to fill up. I understand that i have to let go of that thought thinking that I should stay 10-15 mins away from work and I understand that it is almost impossible. (unless if i have a lot of money). So right now, aside from having to explore a totally new area, I also have to used to the idea of driving for about 20-30  minutes to work.
  • Safety- now you have to understand that this is a new area that we are trying to live in, with a growing up kid and an expanding family, safety is a major consideration. My husband will not always be there for me so I have to make sure that it is safe even when I have to handle the kids alone. Be it day or night. over the period of two years in my last job, we stayed in the compound of my workplace and security is never a problem. Now, spreading our wings free we really are concerned about safety.




Nur Kasih 15999

Yesterday when we picked up baby A from the nursery we noticed that there are some bruises under his eyes and on his arm. Our first reaction was to either panic or stay calm. As parents, it is only normal for us to be protective and we went straight to the source and asked the teacher in charge as well as the  principal of the school.

After texting both, which to our disappointment, they both did not gave us the reason to why this red and blue bruises appears on his arm and face. We were appalled by the reactions given by other parents in this matter too. some took it lightly saying that it could have been an accident or the kid fell. but I can assure you that the bruises does not seem to be at the place where he fell and got them.

We know for sure that we need to do something so that this will not be left as something light. negligence of the teachers when things could have happen a lot worst is the last thing you want to happen when your child is at the nursery.

so we called. and case reported. as of now baby A stays with his dad.

So I am back as a career lady and I honestly have no idea how to feel about this because after one year of unemployment and being a SAHM, I know at some point that will be my comfort zone. But I also remember how frustrating it is to not have something serious to be done or to even dress up to work. Also not forgetting the part where no large sum of money banked in to your account every end of the month.

So, I guess that is basically my motivation- to get up, dress up and earn. For now the job is super far away from home that it requires me to take the MRT and not gonna lie, I was nervous at first. but as of today, the second day I slowly can get use to it and sort of liking it.  Although it includes some walking (which is not an armpit friendly thing to do in Malaysia) but I guess I can see that as the much needed exercise for my thighs.

Dressing up is a problem. because being a SAHM for a year, I lost track of my wardrobe. Let alone a functional wardrobe for work. Makes matters worst is that I am now expecting which means that I will, WILL grow bigger. I am glad that the company that I work at now doesn’t apply strict rules on what we wore as long as it is not a pair of flipflops or jeans. Super relieved this morning when husband actually ask what exactly is my plan for my wardrobe now that I am pregnant. At least somebody is paying attention and I don’t have to figure out everything. I can honestly see me shop for something new soon.

My prayers has been answered. The fact that I want this- our morning scenario- waking up early, going to work and nursery together instead of just one parent- and coming home together as unit too. I somehow wanted this. Yes, there may be challenges to it but yesterday this thought came to my mind- If  God puts me in this hardship to give me a better life then I shall embrace this and enjoy every moment of it.


God I love typing on my keyboard. So smooth and my PC is such a coolio- touchscreen ftw!


well, Update more in a bit. I wanna get familiar with company’s website now.


have a great day dinie. and everyone!


3 Good News in One Day

After what seems to be a constant downs in our lives, one day everything seems to be better and there is ope again. to survive.

Ted got a job in the same state as we are now, a little far but okay.

I got a job too!

Baby A will be a big brother!


that explains the constant fatigue and lethargic i have been going through and its a bit too early but I am already vomiting everything out. #isthistwins


so much to write but until  master my mantra- I AM ENERGETIC I AM ENERGETIC,


Welcome Fourth

We survived third year of marriage and it was hell.

No, not really. But I can guarantee you that it is not all sunshine and rainbows.

This date today is the first that I have no memory at all, like i completely forgot that today is a special day and that is highly unlikely of me. I’d always be the excited one to remember and to try make it special. I guess it was never special to begin with. I was never celebrated in a special way, no special gifts, not even a celebration with family. perhaps that is the reason why I subconsciously think that today is nothing memorable. Apart from the date that my life has changed. Commit my whole life to a guy that I thought would take care of me better that my parents would. Who would actually listens to my never ending rants and stories. Who would always make me his priorities and never procrastinate on how to make me happy. because simply, he, above anyone else would have known better on how to make me happy. As I am a very simple woman.

The skies breaks again, with thunders this afternoon. And so is my heart. torn between celebrating this very day or not and wonders why would I celebrate something that doesn’t even celebrates me?why go through the hassle?

People say the first Five Years of marriage is the toughest and being in my position now I’d love to believe that that my fifth year will be a whole lot easier. The thing is  I am surrounded by people who are always celebrated in their marriage, first five years doesn’t even seem so tough on them. then I ask, why is it so tough on me?