This year is a major roller coaster of so many things. If i have to describe it in a few words i would say it is a year where I mature. I learn to accept things as it is, deal with emotions that I usually avoid and come to terms with certain things that I may not be comfortable before.
A recap. This year my first born went to a better school and boy did he bloom. He grows and learns a lot of things that I should have taught him but realize that I can’t with me working now. He has picked up surah to memorize including Al Fatihah, An Nas, Al Falaq and Al Ikhlas. He has also memorized a few du’as and that warms my heart. I’ve got to say Alhamdulillah for this development in his education. Now it is up to me to uphold this lessons that he has learnt.
We had a wonderful holiday with my in laws and even though it is tiring and major chaos, but we are super happy that we made it. it wasn’t easy though. Would we do it again? maybe not.
Then the pandemic happens and it was a start of a major twist in our lives. Suddenly we are not allowed to go out at all for a few months and some has been forced to work from home. As for my husband- he lost his job and that breaks my heart but Alhamdulillah- he manage to secure another job but the catch is that he has to travel to a different state. Before that we just got approved to buy a house we called ours and it was such a temporary happiness. Now the mortgage has become a burden but also a blessing. this point is where it all becomes serious.
I learn to accept that a job is just another job but to be able to pay up your commitments without any worry is a blessing. I learn that a job well done is more satisfying than a job done because of other people. I learn that in any thing that we do, put Allah first and insyaAllah He will protect you from harm and discomfort. I learn that living day to day life for Allah is so much easier than living for your husband or kids.
With few weeks left for this 2020, I can only pray and hope that this is turning into a better and greater chapter and 2021 is a blessed year where we no longer have to worry financially and I become an even better mother to my boys. Next year my first born will embark on a new journey in a government school where he will learn another language- I hope Allah makes it easy for him.
Let’s keep praying that 2021 is an even better year as it is 33, an age of The Jannah, where it is supposed to be the best version of us insyaAllah.