Lately I have been avoiding unnecessary negativity in my life and it felt good to be able to do that consciously. I don’t think I am a bad person and I certainly have no control over thoughts in my mind. Sometimes bad thoughts just slips through and as human it is easy for me to just get carried away with them. So, I took the initiative to just avoid. Alhamdulillah, I am now set with much much better thoughts in my mind and heart is at peace. I can focus my energy to better things daily and I have started baking again!
It is now June and we are still under the restricted movement order but with a lot loose ends like dining outside, travel within the district. We still keep our kids inside as much as we could- yes we do move around and they tag along but they just sit in the car gleaming at the outside world occasionally asking for the playground or the malls. It’s a little heartbreaking for them not being able to roam free but for now this is the norm for them.
Work wise has been the usuals- husband has to continue working as usual and that means a job while for me- the government decided that it is still unsafe to open the school so I have been making module for the students to take home and do. I am trying my very best to do so much in so little time in providing access for students to learn by themselves. I need to try and do my best to keep this job- hopefully Allah will see the effort and grant me permanent status asap.
I have also been baking a little bit here and there and I love it so much. I think I need to aim 4 boxes max a day to be able to do this and earn steadily. Love how making cheese tart is also an art for me to try and today since there will be orders, I might brush up on my drawing skills too. Hopefully this can be another back up plan for our future.
Speaking of the future, we are in the process of buying a house- which I think is a long shot but we would love to try. We are already learning so much through the first process and the experience is precious. I might write more about it later.
Gotta go, kid is calling. June please be more exciting.